Title: Shall We Dance? 11/12
Author: Caroline (chibirei @
hotmail.com)
Rating: R mebbe? NC-17 overall.
Pairing: 1x2 (at
last!), R+1 (ewww...), 3+4, 5+M, implied 13x2, 6+9, Howard+anything in a skirt
(it just keeps growing...)
Warnings: AU, OOC, a tad angsty, Relena
bashing, lots of references to dancing, and I've gone and bastardized Treize...
sorry
Disclaimers: for some reason I can't quite fathom, I don't own
Gundam Wing. I know, strange isn't it? I also don't own the movie 'Shall We
Dance?' from which comes some of the dialogue.I make money teaching bratty
children. And believe me, you wouldn't be getting much if you sued.
XI : Foxtrot
The first sensation Heero
became aware of was pain. A dull, aching throb blossomed from the back of his
skull and radiated outward through his entire body. His ears were ringing with a
high pitched whine. As he slowly became aware of his surroundings, he realized
it wasn't a whine, but his wife's voice.
"He's awake! Milliardo, he's
waking up! Heero, can you hear me?" Each word she uttered sent a jolt of pain
through his head.
"Please… not so loud," he rasped, blinking his eyes to
get used to the light. His wife and her brother were standing next to the bed he
was laying on. He glanced around the room. "Where am I?"
"You're in the
hospital," Milliardo answered softly. "Do you remember what happened?"
Heero thought for a moment. "The competition… Duo, Hilde…" His eyes
widened. "Hilde! Is she alright?"
Relena's eyes darkened at the mention
of his friends. However, it was Milliardo who answered him. "She's fine. She has
a minor wrist sprain but nothing serious. You hit your head pretty hard. You've
been in and out of consciousness for a whole day now."
Heero slowly sat
up. Amazingly the pain wasn't so bad in an upright position. He was about to ask
Milliardo for help out of the hospital bed when the door to his room opened. A
tall woman with curly dark blonde hair entered carrying a clipboard.
"Yuy-san, I'm Dr. Sally Po. How are you feeling?" she asked, looking him
over.
"My head still hurts and my neck is a little sore," he replied as
he allowed her to poke and prod at him.
Dr. Po took out a penlight and
shined it in his eyes. "Hm. That's to be expected. Can you stand?"
"I
can try." He swung his legs over the edge of the bed and slid them down to the
floor. Slowly, he stood.
"Good," commented the doctor. "Any dizziness?"
Heero shook his head.
"Okay. I'll give you some pain medication.
That should take care of the headaches. You can go home now, Yuy-san, but get
lots of rest and drink plenty of fluids. If you experience any dizziness or
blurred vision, come back to the hospital immediately." She dug around in her
coat pocket and brought out a packet of two small, white pills. Take these two
now and I'll write you a prescription for more."
"Thank you, doctor,"
Heero said, taking the slip of paper she handed him.
"You can sign your
release forms at the nurse's station. Do you have any questions?"
"No.
Thank you," he said again, bowing to her.
"Take care, Yuy-san," she said
before she left the room, leaving the three of them alone once more.
"I
brought you a change of clothes," Milliardo said, handing him a folded pair of
jeans and a button-down shirt.
"As soon as you get dressed, we can go
home," Relena added.
"I can't go home yet. There are some things I need
to do."
"Things? What kinds of things?" Relena demanded, looking at him
crossly. "You heard the doctor. You need to rest."
"Later. There is
something I have to do first," he replied as he pulled on his jeans.
Relena's eyes darkened. "You're going to see *him* aren't you?"
Heero paused in the process of pulling off the paper hospital gown. His
heart suddenly grew cold. "What do you mean?"
"That… that *boy* with the
braid. I saw you two at the Exhibition Center." Her face was turning red with
anger with each passing moment. "How could you do this to me? To *us*?"
Heero yanked off the paper gown. "Relena, there *is* no us. There hasn't
been for a long time. Perhaps there never was."
"How can you say that?!"
"Look, Relena, I'm sorry you had to find out like this. I've been
meaning to talk to you about it for a while." He looked her directly in the
eyes. "I want a divorce."
Relena looked at him in surprise. "You can't
possibly be serious."
"I've never been more serious in my life, Relena.
I've already had the papers drawn up."
"No."
"Relena…"
"No! There will be no divorce! I won't allow such as scandal on my
family name! I won't have it!" she shouted at him, stamping her foot like a
child.
"It's too late, Relena," Heero said calmly.
"No it's
not!" She walked over to him and clutched his arm possessively. "I know things
haven't been right between us for a while, but maybe we can work things out. We
could go away together, just the two of us." He could hear the desperation in
her voice. "Or… or we could get some counseling…"
"No Relena. I am
getting a divorce. I never should have married you in the first place. It wasn't
fair to me and it certainly wasn't fair to you. And for that I am sorry."
"No! You can't mean that! You love me!" she protested vehemently.
Heero grabbed him wife's shoulders and set her away from him. "I want
you to listen to me carefully, Relena. I. Don't. Love. You." He punctuated each
word so she would get the point. "I'm sorry if I ever made you think otherwise.
But it's time to end this charade of a marriage."
"No! No!" she cried,
balling her fists. "I won't lose you! You're *my* husband. I wasn't lose you to
that little faggot!"
Heero grabbed Relena's upper arms and shook her.
"Don't you *ever* call him that," he said dangerously.
Relena looked
into his eyes and laughed. "What makes you think he'll take you back anyway?
From the look on his face, I'd say you never told him you were married."
Heero felt a cold chill pass through his body. "What do you mean?"
"The little slut came here looking for you yesterday. I told him you
were *my* husband and couldn't be disturbed," she spat viciously. "He turned so
pale I thought he was going to faint. But he didn't. He turned tail and ran
away."
"That's not true," he protested, his voice wavering. `Please God,
let it not be true.'
"Heero," Milliardo interrupted gently. The Japanese
man had almost forgotten he was there. "I'm afraid it is true. Duo was here. He
knows."
Heero pushed Relena away from him and sat down heavily on the
bed. "No. Duo…"
How could he have let this happen? He knew Duo had been
betrayed before. How could he have done this to the one person he loved more
than life itself? And now… now he may have lost Duo forever. The thought
sickened him and chilled him to the bone. He stood up and pulled on his shirt,
buttoning it hastily.
"I have to see him," he said as he quickly
gathered his belongings.
"No! I won't allow this!" Relena cried again.
"You have no say in the matter," Heero snapped at her as he slid his
shoes on. "Expect to hear from my lawyer soon."
"Heero…"
Walking
to the door, he took one last look at his wife. "Good-bye, Relena."
Relena's wail of outrage followed him out into the hall. He quickly
walked to the nurse's station and signed all the necessary forms. He was about
to turn away when a voice stopped him.
"Heero, wait."
Heero
turned to see Milliardo walking briskly toward him. "Milliardo, I'm sorry for
doing this to your sister. I hope one day both you and she can understand…"
"Heero," his brother-in-law interrupted, "there's nothing to forgive. I
already understand. I came out here to wish you luck. Duo is very special."
Heero blinked at him incredulously, not knowing what to say.
"Look, I'll talk to Relena for you. I'll try to make her see the light
on all this. You go to Duo. Explain everything to him. And don't leave anything
out this time."
"A… arigatou."
"Go," Milliardo ordered, giving
him a little push. "I'll see Relena home."
Heero nodded his thanks,
amazed that Milliardo was on his side… and actually understood! But all thoughts
of his soon-to-be ex-wife and brother-in-law left his mind as he bolted down the
hallway. All he could think of now was the beautiful violet-eyed dancer who had
stolen his heart.
`I'm so sorry, Duo…'
_____________
In the end, Heero was glad Dr. Po had given him those pain pills. Duo's
house wasn't *too* far from the hospital, but the hustle and bustle of the busy
afternoon crowd aggravated his head. And he'd need a clear head to face Duo.
He paused at the little gate in front of Duo's house. He was afraid,
more so than he had ever been in his entire life. But he wasn't going to run
away like he had all those times he had tried to tell Duo the truth. He couldn't
afford to run away, not if he didn't want to lose the one precious thing in his
life. Taking a deep breath, he walked up the stone path to the door and rang the
bell.
It was Une who answered the door. As soon as she saw him standing
there, her eyes narrowed. "What do you want, Yuy-san?" He could hear the barely
controlled anger in her voice.
"Une-sensei, is Duo home? May I see him?"
he asked plaintively.
"Do you really think that's a good idea?" she
asked as she stepped out onto the porch, closing the door behind her.
"Please, I… I need to explain…"
"I think your *wife* already
explained everything Duo needed to know, Yuy-san," she said viciously.
Heero looked at the ground. "I'm sorry, I…"
"You're *sorry*? Do
you really understand what you've done?" Her voice rose higher in pitch as tears
began gathering in the corners of her eyes. "Do you know how long it took for
Duo to get over what Treize had done to him? I don't know what he told you, but
I know he didn't tell you the whole truth. He didn't eat or sleep for *days*
after he came home from Blackpool. I was so afraid I was going to lose him, too.
But he pulled out of it. It took almost a year, but he managed to somehow get
over what that bastard had done. And yet, he wasn't the same. The bright, happy
child I knew was gone. In his place was a quiet, sullen young man."
Une
paused to wipe the tears from her face. "And then you came along. I don't know
what you did, but somehow… somehow he started to smile and laugh again. I was so
happy and grateful that I had my Duo-chan back. And it was all because of you!
But yesterday… yesterday you sent him right back to where he was after
Blackpool. And I don't know if I can ever forgive you for that."
Heero
felt tears slip silently down his cheeks as he listened to Une's tirade. She was
right. What he had done, or rather, what he had *not* done was unforgivable. He
didn't blame Une for not letting him in to see Duo. Had he been in Duo's
position, he probably wouldn't want to see him either. The best thing he could
do was go. He would leave Duo alone and hope that someday Duo could forgive him.
"I'm so sorry. Please, just tell him I'm sorry. I never meant to hurt
him." He looked back into her eyes. "I love him."
"I think you should
go," Une whispered as she stepped back into the house.
"Please? Just
tell him that?" he begged.
Une looked at him for a long moment before
reluctantly nodding. "I will tell him."
"Arigatou." It was all he could
say. He stared at the door after Une had closed it for a long minute before
turning and walking away.
_____________
Une shut the
door, wiping furiously at the tears on her face. She didn't want Duo to know she
had been crying. She climbed the stairs, calling Duo's name softly.
Her
brother-in-law was where she had left him - curled up on the futon in the corner
of their upstairs dance studio. His tear-streaked face looked up as she entered
the room.
"Was that… was that him?" he sniffed, tugging unconsciously at
the end of his braid.
Une paused. "Yes."
Duo nodded and picked
at his hair. Une sat down beside him on the futon. Duo inched closer to curl up
beside her. She wrapped her long arms around him and gently rubbed soothing
circles on his back. "It's okay to cry, Duo-chan."
Duo buried his face
in her shoulder and mumbled, "Boys don't cry." Half a second later, Une felt hot
little droplets seeping through her shirt. She held him and rocked him and
hummed a little tune his mother used to sing when he was a baby. Gradually,
Duo's tears slowed, though his still kept a death grip on her shirt.
"What did he say?" he asked, almost too softly for her to hear.
Une hesitated. "He said… he said he was sorry," she answered finally.
Duo gave a small laugh. "They all say they're sorry."
"He… he
sounded sincere enough."
Duo shifted in her arms. "Yes. Heero would."
His voice became softer. "Did he say anything else?"
Une closed her
eyes. She didn't want to tell him. And yet… and yet, Duo was right. Heero may
have hurt her Duo-chan terribly, but she could see the truth in the young man's
eyes. He *was* sincere. And Duo needed to know that.
"He said he loved
you," she whispered, holding him tightly.
Duo pressed his face into the
crook of her arm. "I thought I'd never feel the same after Treize. But then I
met Heero." He looked up at her and smiled, *really* smiled. "After I met him, I
realized I had never loved Treize. Because what I felt for him was *nothing*
compared to what I felt for Heero."
"Oh, Duo…"
Silver tears
began streaming down his heart-shaped face once more. "I love him, Une. I love
him. I *love* him."
Une held Duo's sobbing form as the young man chanted
those three words over and over until the sun had long since set over the city.
_____________
Several weeks later…
A loud knocking broke
Heero out of his half-asleep, half-awake daze. He glanced at the clock to see
that it was a quarter past eight in the evening. His small apartment was mostly
dark, lit only by the flickering light of the television set. Shadows danced
around the sparsely furnished room. Truthfully, Heero preferred this small, bare
apartment to the lavish, museum-esque house Relena had kept. He had simplistic
tastes and didn't need a lot of things. Yes, this apartment suited him a lot
better than Relena's house ever had.
The knocking at the door grew more
persistent. "Heero? Are you home?" Milliardo's voice came from the other side of
the door. Heero quickly stood and let his brother… no, *former* brother-in-law
in.
"Are you alright, Heero?" the blonde man asked as he stepped inside.
"I must have been knocking for a full minute."
"Gomen. I was half
asleep. Long day at work," Heero replied as he clicked off the television and
turned on some lights. He gestured for the taller man to have a seat. "So what
brings you here this time of night?"
"I was in the neighborhood and
thought I'd stop in to see how you were doing, what with everything that's been
happening in the past few weeks." He looked around. "Nice place."
"Thanks. It's not much, but I like it. I'm happier here."
"Happy?" Milliardo asked. "How happy are you really, Heero?"
"I'm fine. The divorce has come through. I have my own place. I'm…
okay."
Milliardo looked at him. "And Duo?"
Heero looked down. "I
haven't seen him since the competition. You know that."
"Yes, I do. And
I still say you're making a monumental mistake by not seeing him and trying to
explain things."
"I tried, Milliardo, I really did. I went to his house
the day I got out of the hospital. Une wouldn't let me in. I called and left
messages both at his house and the dance studio. He doesn't want to see me."
"Fight harder."
"How, dammit?" Heero cried, hitting the
cushioned arm of the couch with his fist. He took a deep breath to calm himself.
"It's hopeless. I've lost him."
"Heero…"
"No. Please don't push
it. It's better this way. I've already caused him too much pain. I'm afraid any
more contact with me would just give him more grief. And I *won't* do that to
Duo. I just wish I could apologize… tell him how sorry I am. Tell him that I
never, ever meant to hurt him." He gestured to a small, white envelope on the
nearby desk. "I even wrote him a letter. Took me nearly twenty tries before I
could finally put all the thoughts in my head on paper. But it's all there.
Everything I felt for him, everything I did… it's all written down."
"Then why is it still sitting on your desk?"
"I told you, I
won't add to the pain I've already caused. I won't mail it to him. I thought
that by getting all my emotions out on paper, it would make me feel better."
"But it didn't." It was more of a statement that a question.
"To
an extent, it did. I finally had everything I was feeling written in black and
white in front of me. But knowing that I'd never be able to share those thoughts
with Duo… it broke my heart all over again."
Milliardo looked at him
thoughtfully for a long moment before speaking again. "Heero, tell me the truth.
How do you *really* feel about Duo?"
Heero stared into space as he
thought about Milliardo's question. How *did* he feel about the beautiful young
dancer who had captured his attention? Kinship - the boy had lost his family as
he had lost his own. Protectiveness - he wanted to spare Duo from the pain and
suffering of the world. Friendship - during their long talks over dinners they'd
discovered they had a great many things in common, a love of dancing being but
one. Lust - that one was a given as he remembered their one, magical night
together. But when he thought about it, he realized that his feelings for the
violet-eyed American went much, much deeper than any of that. When Duo was
happy, he was happy. When Duo was in pain, Heero hurt right along with him. They
were kindred spirits, soul mates. The shining soul that was Duo Maxwell had
taught him how to live and laugh again. And in the end, only three words were
needed.
"I love him."
Milliardo nodded, apparently seeing
everything Heero left unspoken in the Japanese man's eyes. "Good. That's what I
wanted to know."
Heero opened his mouth to ask what he meant by that
when a soft knock on his door interrupted him. He excused himself and went to
answer it, wondering who it could be. He was very surprised to see Quatre
standing on the other side.
"Konbanwa, Heero-kun. May I come in?"
"A… aa," Heero murmured as he stepped aside, ushering the small blonde
into his apartment. It wasn't the first time Quatre had been to visit him. He,
Trowa, and Wufei had all stopped by at one point or another to see how he was.
Heero was grateful for their concern - and even more grateful that they had
forgiven him for what he had done to Duo after he had told them the whole story.
Sadly, it wasn't *their* forgiveness that he craved.
"What brings you
here, Quatre?" Heero asked as he took the young man's coat.
"Hilde's
finally forgiven you. We told her everything." Quatre smiled. "Of course that
may be because she's getting fed up with having Wufei as her partner. She wants
to dance with you again."
"Tell her I appreciate her sentiments but I'm
through with dancing," Heero replied as he gestured for Quatre to enter the
living area.
"I'm sorry to hear that, Heero-kun. You were turning out to
be a fine dancer. I… oh, I'm sorry. I didn't realize you had company," he said,
catching sight of Milliardo sitting on the couch.
"Quatre Winner,
Milliardo Peacecraft," Heero said, introducing the two men.
"Pleasure to
finally meet you," Milliardo said. "I saw you at the hospital did I not?"
"I believe so, Mr… Peacecraft?" Quatre looked at Heero. "As in…"
"He is Relena's brother," Heero explained.
"Ah," Quatre said,
looking slightly confused. "How did things with Relena go anyway?"
Heero
picked a sheath of papers off his desk and waved them at his friend. "The
divorce came through yesterday."
"That's good. I mean…" Quatre trailed
off, looking embarrassedly at Milliardo.
The taller blonde laughed.
"Don't worry. I'm on Heero's side. I love my little sister, but she has some
severe selfishness issues to work out. Comes from being too spoiled as a child,
I guess."
Quatre turned back to Heero. "So getting the papers signed
wasn't a problem?"
Heero winced. Milliardo laughed. "Of course it was a
problem," the taller man said. "Relena tried every trick in the book to keep
Heero."
"Like what?"
"Alimony," Heero answered. "She said I
couldn't afford to divorce her."
"His lawyer then said since Relena had
*more* money than Heero, she'd have to pay him!" Milliardo exclaimed, humor
gleaming in his eyes.
"Will she?" Quatre asked, grinning. Heero had told
them all what Relena was really like, and they had all agreed Heero had made the
right decision by seeking a divorce.
"No. Her lawyer argued that since
*I* was the one who cheated on our marriage, I wasn't entitled to a thing."
Heero shrugged. "And I'm not. I don't need or want her money."
"Relena
thought she had him with that one until Heero explained he had his own money,"
Milliardo added.
Heero allowed himself a small smile. "She never seemed
to realize that I'd had a job and that I never spent a cent on myself. I
invested every yen I earned. I have myself a nice little nest egg. It's not big,
but it's enough for me to live comfortably on."
"You should have seen
her face when she found that out. I swear her face turned purple." Milliardo
grinned. "But that wasn't the best part."
"Oh, do tell," Quatre begged.
"Milliardo…"
"Hush, Heero. Let me tell this. When Relena said
she wouldn't sign the papers, Heero stood up, looked her in the eye and said,
`This divorce *will* happen, one way or another. Either we do this today and the
details stay between us, or we do it the hard way - in front of a judge,
complete with a big, splashy media parade.' And then he got real close to her
and said, `Which scandal would you prefer, Relena? A quiet divorce, or the fact
that I left you for another *man*?' She signed the papers quickly after that."
Quatre collapsed back on the couch in a fit of giggles. "Oh I bet the
look on her face was priceless! I wish I could have seen it."
Heero
rolled his eyes. "If you two gossiping old hens are through discussing the
details of *my* life…"
"Sorry, Heero-kun," Quatre said, still grinning.
Heero looked at the smaller blonde. "Why are you here again, Quatre?
Surely it wasn't to tell me about Hilde."
"Er, no. I *did* need to talk
to you about something but…" He glanced at Milliardo. "Maybe it can wait."
Milliardo stood. "No. You stay. I should be leaving now anway."
Heero saw him to the door. "Thank you for stopping by."
"Heero,
I know we're not family anymore, but don't let that make you a stranger. Come
over any time," his former brother-in-law said, smiling.
"I'd like that.
Thank you."
"I'll see you sometime soon."
After saying their
good-byes, Heero shut the door and returned to Quatre. "So what was it you
wanted to talk to me about?"
Quatre hesitated for a moment before
answering. "It's Duo."
Heero immediately felt a surge of fear run
through him. "What is it? Is he alright?"
"I haven't seen him. He hasn't
been back to the dance school. Une- sensei has hired someone new to teach Duo's
students. Big guy by the name of Rashid. Looks like he has all the grace of an
elephant, but he's actually quite good." He noticed Heero's worried look. "Don't
worry, Heero-kun. Duo's fine, physically at least. Hilde went to see him a
couple of days ago. She said he had a rough couple of days after the competition
but that he's doing better now. However…" He shifted uncomfortably on the sofa.
"What is it?" When Quatre didn't answer him, he grew even more worried.
"Quatre, please tell me."
"He's leaving the country, Heero. He's moving
to England."
Heero felt like someone had punched him in the stomach.
Duo… gone? He had consoled himself that even though he and Duo weren't together
anymore, he could catch glimpses of his love in the dance studio window. But now
he wouldn't even be able to console himself with the fact that Duo lived only a
few blocks away. Duo was leaving the country. Heero suddenly felt very ill.
"Why?" he rasped, his mouth dry.
"I don't know. Hilde didn't
elaborate. But Heero… you should go see him. It may be your only chance."
Heero didn't say anything. Quatre was right. Duo was *leaving*. He had
to try to see him before that happened. He didn't know what he would say, but he
couldn't let Duo leave without seeing him one last time.
"Heero?"
He looked back to Quatre. "I'm sorry. You're right. I need to see him,"
he said softly.
Quatre nodded and stood. "I only stopped by to tell you
that. I need to get going."
Heero stood as well and walked him to the
door. "Thank you for coming here to tell me that, Quatre."
"I thought
you should know. And Heero… I hope you don't stop dancing. You were really good,
and I know you were enjoying it. Come by the studio some time?"
"I'll
think about it. Thank you again for coming."
Quatre smiled. "Don't let
him slip away," he added as he stepped through the door to leave.
Heero
closed the door silently behind the little blonde. He felt numb. He thought he
had resigned himself to never seeing Duo again. But Quatre's announcement hit
him like a ton of bricks. He really wouldn't see Duo again if he left the
country. He didn't know how he could handle that. All he knew was that he *had*
to see the young dancer before he left. He wouldn't be able to live with himself
if he didn't.
As he stared off into space, his eyes gradually shifted to
his desk. With a start, he realized that the letter he had written to Duo was
gone.
______________
"Duo-chan?"
The braided dancer
looked up from where he was wrapping several framed photographs carefully in
tissue paper to see his sister-in-law standing in the doorway of their living
room.
"Hai, `neesan?"
"I thought you might like to take this one
with you as well," she said, handing him another frame.
Duo looked down
at the photo and grinned. A mud-splattered ten-year- old version of himself and
an equally muddy Solo looked up at him. "I remember when this was taken. Mother
was livid."
"She just couldn't believe how much mud you two managed to
get all over yourselves. And she couldn't believe that her twenty-five year old
son would get in a mud fight with his ten-year-old brother."
"Hey. He
started it!" Duo exclaimed cheekily as he wrapped the frame in tissue paper. He
looked up as he felt Une staring at him.
"I'm going to miss you,
Duo-chan," she said, tears misting in her eyes.
Duo moved to embrace the
tall woman. "I'll miss you, too, `neesan." He wiped an errant tear from his own
face. "You could come with me, you know."
Une laughed and shook her
head. "No. I have my school. It's something I've always wanted. My life is
here."
Duo nodded. "I know. It'll still be hard, being away from you.
You're the only family I have."
"You just better come back on holidays
and vacations," she threatened lightly.
"I will, I will! I know you'll
hunt me down and drag me back otherwise. And what would that do to my
reputation?" Duo joked as he stood.
Une laughed again. "You hungry? I
thought I'd make us some lunch."
"That sounds great."
As Une
moved toward the kitchen, Duo heard the sound of the mail being slid through the
tiny slot on their door. "Mail's here!" he called out as he moved to the door.
"Will you get it?" Une called out from the kitchen.
"Hai!"
He picked up the envelopes off the floor and began sorting them into
piles… bills, junk mail, personal. He frowned as he saw one with his name
written neatly on it. Tearing it open, his heart leapt into his throat as he saw
who it was from. He walked into the living room, sat down on the small sofa, and
began to read.
Duo,
I've tried to write this letter many
times, trying to find the right words. And even though you will probably never
read this, I realized that no words could express how terrible I feel for what
I've done to you. Please understand that I never meant to hurt you. I'd sooner
cut out my own heart that to cause you any pain.
These past few months
have been nothing short of magical. I hadn't been aware of how truly unhappy I
was with my life until I walked through the doors of your dance school… until I
met you. And suddenly, I was having fun again! I could actually feel myself
getting excited with each new dance I learned. For the first time in a long
while, I actually had something to look forward to. And I had you to thank for
it.
What started me dancing was you gazing out of the window. You can
see those windows from the trains. Every day on the train home I looked for you.
I felt relieved if I saw you or disappointed if you weren't there. Your
melancholy look and sad smiles, they totally charmed me.
I married
Relena for all the wrong reasons. I never loved her - for me it was a marriage
of convenience. It was for love of my parents that I did it. After they died, it
felt like part of me had died with them. I suppose I should have gotten out of
the marriage then, but without my family, I felt like I had nothing left to live
or fight for. So I stayed. Even though we were legally married, Relena and I
hadn't lived together as husband and wife since before my parents died. I felt
trapped, but I was so numb from my parents' deaths that I didn't care.
Then you appeared. I don't know what happened, but seeing you in that
window touched me in a way I hadn't been touched in a long time. Looking up and
seeing you there made me want just one time to dance with you.
My
divorce from Relena will be finalized in a few days. Please don't blame yourself
for this. It was a long time coming. You were merely the catalyst. Without you,
I might not have had the courage to do it. And for that, I thank you.
Thank you for allowing me the honor of dancing with you. I just wish I
had found the courage to tell you about my marriage. I tried to, many times. But
each time I would look into your beautiful violet eyes and I was lost. I
couldn't add to your pain. But I ended up doing that anyway. Please believe me
that I would give anything to take that back.
I have no right to ask for
forgiveness. I can only hope you will be able to move past this and not let it
affect your life. You have changed my life for the better and I will never
forget you for that.
I could no sooner forget you than I could forget my
parents. There was one last thing you taught me. You taught me that I hadn't
lost my ability to love. I think I fell in love with you from the first moment I
saw you standing in the window. I love you more than anything, Duo. I only wish
I could tell you this in person.
Be happy, Duo. Wherever you are,
wherever you may go…
I love you.
Heero
Tears
were streaming down Duo's face as he finished the letter. In the background he
could here the doorbell ringing, but made no move to answer it. His world was
spinning. His mind was a maelstrom of thoughts and emotions. He didn't know what
to do or what to think about Heero's letter.
"Duo-chan?"
Duo
looked up as Une entered the living room, followed by two people, one of which
he knew. "Miss Noin?"
"Hello, Duo," the short-haired woman answered as
she stepped into the room. "This is my friend, Milliardo Peacecraft. He wanted
to talk to you."
A tall man with long blonde hair stepped in behind her.
He looked at the letter in Duo's hand and smirked knowingly. He extended his
hand for Duo to shake. Duo took it, looking at the man questioningly. "Do I know
you?"
"No, but I know you." He sat down next to the distraught young man
as the two women quietly left the room.
"I don't understand," Duo said.
"I have a story to tell you, Duo," the man said, leaning forward. "It's
the story of a man trapped in a loveless marriage who learned to love again. I
need you to listen to this story, and I need you tell me how it ends."
tbc...
We're in the home stretch now, folks! Only
one more part to go. *sniff*
Next part: the conclusion. Can't say
anymore without giving anything away. ^_^ *ducks*
Caroline